January 2012
6 posts
Social Experiments
Today, at my Blockbuster job, I did two experiments to which I hypothesized the good in people by creating a scenario to which my co-worker would be proven wrong. She stated the ubiquitous “Give an inch, take a mile” philosophy that tends to overcome the general population when it comes to deals and sales. Blockbuster is closing so I told a customer she could go through the racks and...
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Jan 12th
I Cloned My Pet
I watched this TLC show tonight and I bawled through out most of it. I know people watched it and saw these obsessed animal lovers, but I saw them as people like me who would do anything for their pup. At one point of the people featured was watching as his puppies cloned from his dog were being born, and all between gasping breaths of crying I totally felt his pain. I know my roommates...
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December 2011
8 posts
what is this?
I’m in a situation right now where a certain amount of stasis is taking place. I just want to scream and argue, but an unspoken truce occurred somewhere. Everything went back to how it was before the fighting started, but now I’ve become uncomfortable with this awkwardness that comes with two people ignoring what’s on the tips of their tongues; instead, they’re opting to act like nothing is wrong....
Dec 29th
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Dec 28th
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Merry Christmas!
I can gripe about holiday consumerism all day, claim I should be able to open my presents early because I don’t believe in Jesus, and I can tell people I have no real love for Christmas at all… But every year I catch myself watching 24-hours of A Christmas Story; all the holiday episodes of Friends, Family Matters, and King of the Hill; and yesterday, I caught myself watching unboxing...
Dec 25th
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Dec 18th
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This Job Sucks
I’ve been told by nearly every customer I approach and every co-worker I’ve ever had, that I’m the sweetest person they’ve ever met. I go out of my way to be nice to people, to make sure they’re finding everything alright, etc. But for some reason my manager seems to have made it his duty to be the most fucking-asshole to me. I drove home tonight in tear because he...
Dec 11th
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Dec 11th
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Work
I’ve been having a hard time at work lately. Maybe its the stress of Finals week or the constant gnawing feeling in my chest from the realization that my “future” is two weeks away. My manager has begun a tirade against me. He constantly degrades me every chance he gets and generally makes me feel like shit. He’s already driven one of the other female co-workers out but...
Dec 6th
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manic muse: THIS BLOG IS NOT RON PAUL FRIENDLY. →
paxamericana: Ron Paul wants to define life as starting at conception, build a fence along the US-Mexico border, prevent the Supreme Court from hearing cases on the Establishment Clause or the right to privacy, permitting the return of sodomy laws and the like (a bill which… As a student who’s been stopped by Ron Paul supporters as I walk to get Subway at my campus center,...
Dec 5th
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November 2011
10 posts
Gift ideas?
My roommate came by my room last night and asked me if the ex-BFF are on speaking terms. The question blindsided me a bit, and I told her the gist: “I talk to him but it’s still very awkward… And I still have a lot of animosity towards that fucking asshole.” Turns out, she was just wondering if we should mail our Christmas presents to him together or separately. Oh. I...
Nov 29th
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Nov 7th
Busy Busy.
Been spending most of my days in class, and then spending my nights working till the wee morning. Having my time scheduled so rigid (it’s tough to find an even balance between school and work schedules) has been making me pretty flaky lately. I don’t have much time to do most of the things I’ve been so accustomed to doing in my free time. I haven’t sculpted a thing, written...
Nov 7th
FutureMe.org
So, I get this letter as I’m skyping with the dude I wrote it about… Hmmm…  ________________________ Dear FutureMe, It’s four days past your 26th birthday and you’re feeling pretty shitty about what occurred over the past year. You fell in love with a boy who then assured you that although he loved you too, he loved you like a family member. Not the same way you...
Nov 2nd
October 2011
4 posts
Oct 25th
Hung out with my favorite four-year old the other day. She gave me a nickname; I am now called “Fire Alley.” In turn, I gave her an even more awesome name: “Sesame Street”. Pics of Fire Alley & Sesame Street to come!
Oct 22nd
Ladies, what is my problem?
I’ve drafted my last email to this one dude who, very brutally, told me that although I was his best friend I did not compare to his lesbian ex-girlfriend (that’s right!)… and began to list the ways in which he found me unattractive! Did I mention how it took six months of still being friends with this fucker until we had reached such a pinnacle in our fighting that I finally...
Oct 18th
Update
Life has been tough these past few months and I’m ready to make some drastic changes. Graduation is around the corner, and so is that anxiety about what to do with a Bachelors in English and $45k in student debt.
Oct 7th
September 2011
4 posts
Sep 23rd
Web Designers?
Anyone know of someone who can design my wordpress layout and code it? I’m pretty poor and can only offer a modest $50 for it (through paypal). Any help would be much appreciated.
Sep 22nd
Bitches Be Horror-ble
I wrote a very soulful email the other day and have yet to receive a response. Every moment that goes by I’m getting more and more pissed off that he hasn’t answered me back…. and then I realize I’m totally the poltergeist in Stir of Echoes. Now if I can only terrorize that bitch with the power of my mind, all will be well.
Sep 21st
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August 2011
5 posts
If I could show you the disaster area of my room I would. The furniture is all over the room. Anything touching the walls has been moved in, and any knick-knacks that had stored on said furniture have now found themselves on the floor. I was sitting here, laughing, watching Reservoir Dogs for the upteenth time, when I notice something small, grayish brown, walking slowly near my bed, less than a...
Aug 20th
Here it is:
Here’s the letter I wrote myself on May 7, 2007. I received it a year later: _____________________________________ Hey you! Dear FutureMe,  I hope you’re having a fun time where you are right now. At this moment, May 6th 2007, all you have in front of you is a list of goals. Currently, you’re working diligently to make those goals reality, and I commend you for that.  I want...
Aug 19th
Epiphany Moment, You Guys!
Back when I was interning at a local film festival, I felt like I was the glue that held up my department together. I was amazing at my job, assisting the Programming Coordinator— I did what I was told, made snide comments, took the fall some times — so much so, that my boss would often tell me how great I was as a sidekick. I accented his Main Character status with lunch runs and...
Aug 19th
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Aug 12th
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July 2011
10 posts
Jul 29th
I am watching Post Grad because a certain someone acts in it. I am watching this horrible movie so I can convince myself that Zach Gilford DOES NOT look like him!  It’s a losing game. Afterthoughts:  This movie sucks so much ass. I would not recommend it to anyone. Zach Gilford isn’t in it enough and Alexis Bledel is annoying. 
Jul 27th
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Jul 20th
Whenever I find myself completely without a sense of purpose, I turn to the only thing that can refocus my perception— Cosmo. I just read, front to cover, the Hot issue; accumulating to the horoscopes, which coincidently is describing my zodiac sign (with a very cute Mila Kunis representing the sign). I like to think of myself as a free-thinker; someone whom will break boundaries and go...
Jul 19th
Post
I recently read a post on Tumblr to which someone said to the writer, “You need love.” That got me thinking. And then, low and behold, a few posts down on my dashboard was a quote from someone that said (paraphrasing here), “Love is a feeling of anxiousness of another person’s well-being.” Now, these two posts really struck a cord with me because I’ve been going...
Jul 17th
Jul 12th
horrible bosses
Saw this movie today. I had high hopes for it but ultimately it fell short. It was rather more of a disappointment than anything and I’m sorry to say that Ebert has lead me astray too many times. Ebert said this film was great; I beg to differ. My face is sunburnt.
Jul 12th
Jul 10th
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I am a book reading fool.
I found a used bookstore that is so miraculous, I found a plethora of books being sold for $1! I even got a paperback version of The Time Traveler’s Wife to replace my cumbersome first printing hardcover edition, as I’m planning on rereading it as soon as my schedule gets free. Also managed to get The Memory Keeper’s Daughter and The Jane Austen Book Club paperbacks for a dollar...
Jul 7th
June 2011
5 posts
An Update on Me
I’ve been on anti-depressants for exactly two weeks now. The doctor said it would be two or three weeks before I start to feel anything, though I’ve yet to notice any changes. I no longer want to cry for no reason, nor do I have any more horrible thoughts about my existence. I feel pleasantly alright. Not great, not horrible, just content. I feel alright with cutting someone important...
Jun 29th
On pills and vacation
If anyone wants to know what’s going on my life right now, I’ll tell you: it’s absolute shit. Whenever I’m depressed, I can’t eat. I haven’t eaten a meal since Thursday, and (until now) haven’t eaten a piece of food since Saturday. The woman who took my blood pressure at the doctor’s today commented how she would have to use a child-size cuff to fit...
Jun 15th
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June Gloom
Last night I went to bed with my work uniform on. Contacts remained in as well. I took a sleeping pill and wished to god that I wouldn’t wake up in the morning. Guess how much of a fucking disappointment it was to open my eyes and realize I’d have to start another day over again.
Jun 14th
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